Learning was simply imposed on me from birth, like it happens to almost every child. Strangely, most people around me thought, they were absolutely the wisest. The society, the school, the employers, the preachers...everyone was trying to teach one or the other of their own so-called wisdom. Their lesson was usually absolute obedience. The lesson was, "Put others before the self". Why not ... it served their own purposes to have free-willing slaves to serve them. Killing each of my desires was taught to be holy. And I, like a martyr, was learning the sacrifices fast, absorbing, like a sponge, much of what was laid out on my plate, ...until... until I was stripped of everything. In that dark hole, no one could rescue me. Like Princess Fiona says in "Shrek" that when no one came to rescue her, she rescued herself. I too had to rescue myself. In that darkness, I was drowning in regrets, self-criticism, self-loath, self-neglect, anger and self-judgement. In my attempts to rescue myself, I moved from one healing technique to another, or trying to again "learn" better techniques etc. This has lead to one final healing technique ...which is UNLEARNING.
Unlearning means, throwing away all that has been imposed on me by others; all that is not my own truth. Unlearning has not been easy, because I have had to kill my other self which has been living in the cage. The other self had become used to the cage. I have had to declare a war on my other self to free my real self out of its clutches. I have had to clear myself of all the junk which is nothing but other peoples' views and opinions; and much of which is not even their own truth, but accumulated/borrowed/stolen from others.
I have to UNLEARN UNLEARN UNLEARN...until my slate is completely squeaky clean. Underneath all that rubbish lies my real self. Once all the clutter is gone from inside me, I shall be able see myself. Then I shall use the divine pen to write my own song. Keep watching me friends...You never know... U might like my song :) ...
Love and Peace, ~Rosy Kaur. 01.03.2012